please, don't apologize ... you said absolutely nothing negative


and btw I feel great today Not happy but not sad.
Despina Vandi entertains me

How is everyone today?

I feel OK Not good not bad...........I'm hoping for a better future lol.

and how are you feeling Karl?

Good to hear. I'm okay, had a bit of a hard day in work. Had a flat tyre so I have to borrow a car for work tomorrow whilst mine is being fixed. I had to call breakdown services today because I don't know how to change a tyre

Dont worry I cant even drive ! I spent the whole day listening to Joe Duffy, posting here being a pain in the neck!

Don't forget opening random topics

lol, on the subject of that ,m someone else followed my lead the other day and asked "How many ears does everyone have", that was randomness at its best. How is the love life? Found the perfect match?

That was Anselm - he is mad as a brush!

No still single but to be honest i'm enjoying it. Went into Break for the Border on Friday in town. Had a great night! What bout u?

Cant stand that place, I was in Q Bar the week before last, its not somewhere I would go again! Had a quiet weekend!

Yeah Q Bar is rubbish. B for the B used to be crap years ago but its quite good now and i'm very choosy when it comes to deciding which club to shame myself in

Has the music improved? There is some advice now I want, why are there no decent clubs in Dublin ? Fireworks was the best, three floors !

I've been living in Manchester for a few years so I don't know whats good now but Spirit used to be good. Apart from that I used to go to The George a lot but thats really crap

guys/girls attention pleeeze!

I have a problem .. I really wanna get some black lowlights? I have medium brown hair, would that look good ? what do you think ? ( and no I'm not posting my picture )

You should give it a try.

GordonRamsayIsmyHero wrote:guys/girls attention pleeeze!

I have a problem .. I really wanna get some black lowlights? I have medium brown hair, would that look good ? what do you think ? ( and no I'm not posting my picture )

YES.
that will look fantastic

Okey dokey then

thanks guys

I guess I'm gettin' those black lowlightes

I done my back in on Thursday and its f*cken killing me! I am doubled over in pain and Saint Patricks Day is coming up!

^ awww poor thing *kisses (no hugz because of your back )*

If I lived near you I would so compensated you St. Patricks Day ... in a bar I mean

@ eurovisionireland - So I take it you are not going to the parade? Hope your feeling better

Cheers Alexander!

@ Karl, nope wont be any where near one. Going to have a quiet weekend and then save up some cash, off to the states at the end of april for two weeks!

Ah cool! Where in Armerica are you going to?

Houston to Los Angeles, going to fly from Houston to Phoenix hopefully then hire a car.

Finally got a job and there is a medical for it on Wednesday and I am not looking forward to it. If my back kicks up before that I am done for! Its an office job in the civil service so it shouldnt matter but fingers crossed I pass it !

yeah! *Alex crosses his fingers*

Alexander's Psychiatry wrote:^ you didn't understand me.
erm, I have like a hundred friends in the real life but I can't name them "real" friends. They care only about themselves and they will prefer you to something else. F*ck it. I'm tired of searching for "real" friends that won't betray me ... I just become more and more disappointed.
heh, do you think I don't realize what you said?
don't be so shocked. I'm not the first person on Earth who doesn't like his/her parents. Maybe I love them but not as hard as I thought I would. It hurts a lot and I feel ashamed. I just don't have it and I'm not sure I ever will.

I recognize your emptyness...
I don't love my parents either. I hate them. And I also feel ashamed, even though I know I have good reasons not loving them.
I also have a lot of friends, but no really good or close friends. Life gets a bit empty without the stength and support from your family and friends. My soul feels empty. You probably recognize this aswell... a bit?

Bacause of these "social problems" I get depressed. In periods I have to eat medicin to boost up my happiness level in my brain!
It's hard to live like this. But there always little tiny things that make you go on. I've learned to not take much for granted. I try to see daily little things as a big gift. Focus on the positive, every little thing... Like today the sun is shining. Today I woke up without a headache, and so on... And it works!

Ofcours I have terrible days also. And then I complain and feel miserable for a while (tears can be good to release presure ). But then I focus on something other, like writing a completely ridiculous list of what my favourite colours are, cleaning my warddrobe or something else like that (Or being HERE! ) then I feel better again!

I just want to let you know that you are not alone!